At one time, I was signed with 3 different talent agencies that had me running like a chicken in heat on my lunch breaks from my 9-5 to auditions. I did that for about 2 years. One day, I realized I hated when my cell phone rang, because it was usually an agent...not with a BOOKING, but with yet another audition! I never felt quite comfortable with the whole audition process...and after a bunch of soul searching I realized it was because I knew I was supposed to be the one BEHIND the desk in the power position. Someone else telling me I'm "right" or "good enough" or "great" or "perfect" or NOT for a particular role or commercial never sat well with me. So I slowly but surely stopped. I decided to focus on creating for myself and others instead of chasing behind someone to give me an opportunity. I'm going the way of Spike Lee & Tyler Perry & Robert Townsend...Ice Cube & Queen Latifah...The Wayans Brothers! Make your own stuff, put yourself in it and let the chips fall where they may.
So when a friend and comrade in the entertainment hustle game called me and said a director that had seen my work (and loved it) asked for my contact info because she wanted me to audition for a Boost Mobile commercial she's working on, my heart went piter pat for more than one reason. First of all, I've already stated I HATE auditions...but I love to act. Secondly, once I received the breakdown for the 3 ads, to my dismay, one of them had SWIMSUIT as the wardrobe. This particular ad will be shot on a beach...2 lovers running toward each other style. Ok. Nervous excitement instantly turned to disappointment and even...dare I say, DREAD.
I have never been a go-to-the-gym type girl. I've stayed relatively the same size most of my life by being NATURALLY active (i.e. taking the stairs between floors @ work instead of the elevator, speed walking to and from the train...the speed part mainly because I'm usually running real close to late). Besides a dance class here and there, the closest I've come to a disciplined workout is getting my behind on my living room floor and doing the same crunch/leg lift/straddle stretch routine I've been doing since my cheerleading days in high school. But for the last few months, I've been slacking on even that. And the large pepperoni pizza that I devoured over the prior few days didn't help. Hey....what can I say, I had a coupon. (BTW - Delish! Plug for Geppetto's Pizzeria!)
So the day before I get this call about the Boost commercial, I start getting real antsy about my laziness and my cheese and dough stuffed belly. I got back to it...the crunch/leg lift/straddle stretch routine. Even pulled out my trusty 5 lb weights. But one day of working out would not be sufficient for me to switch myself into an audition wearing a two piece! A friend of mine said I should still go...that I have a nice body etc. But I know I'm not in the best shape that I could be. My confidence would be shot. Couple that with the natural actor's nerves....recipe for disaster! I'd rather leave the positive image the director currently has of me firmly cemented....til the next opportunity.
One thing's for sure, I now know the meaning of "Proper Planning Prevents Poor Performance". Oh well, lesson learned. Sigh.
bite of the day ~ You never know when opportunity will come knocking. Stay ready.
thirtiesgirl
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