Thursday.
I'd been home long enough to go through my normal ritual of removing as many layers as I can...as quickly as I can without freezing...(thank God my place is pretty cozy). I like to be free and would honestly walk around in public in panties alone (no thongs...and burn the bra!) if I could get away with it...anyway. I digress. So I'm comfy...and warm...thanking God for the awesome parking space that I rarely get on the corner right by my place....when all of a sudden, I hear a car alarm going off. Just out of curiosity (and because I'm a good neighbor), I decide to peek out and make sure everything was cool. Sigh. It was my ride! Lights flashing and the lights of the car in front of me were flashing too...the BMW in front of me. Sigh again! I threw on my jeans and snow boots in record time. Didn't think to grab my phone, pad nor pen. Just frantic me and my keys. Thank God the little white man with the too minty breath (liquor camouflage alert!) had enough integrity to stop. Gratefully, it wasn't too bad. Mainly scrapes on the back side. I would still be able to make the short road trip to Bloomington the next day to celebrate my cousin's birthday, as planned.
Saturday.
After having great conversation food and drink with my family, we decide to hop into my twin (born same year same month and extremely close) cousin's car and go back to my birthday cousin's suite to chill. A cell phone rings. The younger one is on the other end. He's listening and looking at me. Uh oh.
"Somebody just hit your car".
It was parked on a WIDE residential street in front of my family's home when some drunk idiot turned the corner, almost ran into a tree...swung around...hit the FRONT of my ride...ran up on the lawn across the street and almost into the house, which surely would have killed the young one standing in the window frozen in front of headlights...then drove across two more lawns...and then sped away. Hit and Run. Sigh. I was numb with disbelief.
"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!?!"
My vehicle hit TWO times within 3 days??? Nothing like this has EVER happened to me before. I held it together until we got back to the suite, then the waterworks began. Why me? What have I done?? I haven't done anything to deserve this!?! Overwhelmed. That's the word. It wasn't just Thursday or Saturday. It was the previous TWO weeks of pressure and torment, being forced to lift my fists and attempt to fight my way out of a lonely damp dark corner..fight against love. It was the last year and a half of living a life that I never saw coming. It was the having to make a Plan B while already in it. Since, until that point, Plan A was the only one in existence...for me. Sunday morning, my best friend called. I told her about the accidents. She said she'd dreamed about me all night. Distress signals must have been going out....
Journal Excerpt:
"...at the end of the day, I'm finally getting it through my head....IN THIS LIFE STUFF HAPPENS! God is with me through it all. Everything cannot and will not be prevented and I may get some scrapes bumps and bruises along the way...but I will emerge with no "structural" damage, just like my ride. And when I get out of God's shop, I'll look and BE just like new. Selah."
bite of the day ~ Just because you're special...don't mean you're special. Stuff will happen to you, just like everybody else. Trust God and you will be stronger...you'll be tougher...prepared for the next punch life throws.
thirtiesgirl
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